tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-145129312012-02-16T11:55:54.711-06:00a journey of spiritual awakeningKrysiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08441296304094976930noreply@blogger.comBlogger201100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14512931.post-64094203710428384172010-06-14T17:48:00.000-05:002010-06-14T17:48:54.990-05:00

I have my first appointment with my midwife tomorrow. I am so excited, but a little nervous as I don't know what to expect. I am planning a water birth at home. My husband and I watched "The Business of Being Born" and it solidified our decision to plan a midwife attended, home birth. I am reading "The Thinking Woman's Guide to a Better Birth". Very informative. I want to make sure I have

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I think all of this is finally sinking in. I am feeling great and enjoying being pregnant. I am so happy to be done with school. I have a lot planned for the summer. I want to make sure the house is cleaned and organized before I go back to school in August since I won't have a lot of time during the school year to get things in order. I met with my midwife for the first time a couple of

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I am still having a hard time believing this is real. The "PREGNANT" on my digital test faded this morning and it made me sad. Like I'm not pregnant anymore. The blood test came back normal, so that's exciting. It's not a hysterical pregnancy like the character on Glee had. I am beginning to process everything that has happened and all of the people including my husband who said it was

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After booking my consult for IVF, I felt confident that I was taking a step in the right direction. When I woke up this morning, I thought I would take a test. A part of me thought what is the point, but I am a POASaholic after all. Then, I looked and it said, "PREGNANT". What?! Holy shit! I was crying and hugging my husband. I am having a hard time believing it is real. I am going in for

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I had an amazing dream over the weekend that really changed my perspective. I was at the airport waiting for a flight. My friend, Marta was there. I met Marta at a fertility yoga class at Pulling Down the Moon. Marta kept taking short flights to places, coming back to the airport again and taking another flight elsewhere. All the while, I waited. I had trouble finding the place to check in

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My sister says that my stop signs are brick walls asking if I want it back enough to knock them down. I guess she read that Last Lecture book. Maybe I really don't want to do IVF, but I can't help feeling like things should be falling into place a little more if this is the direction I am meant to go in. She disagreed. Sometimes I feel like she just likes to argue with me. People are

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I went to a Resolve meeting last night - a support group for those struggling with infertility. They offered their stories and suggestions. One talked about going to another state for less expensive IVF which seems like a good option. Another discussed trying to be a part of a clinical trial. I searched online for fertility clinics when I got home and very few clinics put their prices on the

Krysiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08441296304094976930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14512931.post-35224122731943058552010-04-07T15:47:00.000-05:002010-04-07T15:47:34.419-05:00

I straightened my basement for the good part of the morning and bought a few things to start planting my seeds tomorrow. I purchased an online consultation to have my Chinese medical diagnosis and to have some herbs prescribed. I realize that I have been eating poorly all of my life and I was hoping some herbs will help me to get my body in tip top shape a little quicker. I bought it online on

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I have been on a holistic kick lately, learning all I can about holistic health, wellness and diet. I have been listening to the Holistic Health and Wellness podcast. They had a recent episode on holistic fertility. I ended up having a phone consultation with the woman who was on the podcast. She gave me a few good suggestions and recommended I have consults with two other people in her

Krysiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08441296304094976930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14512931.post-73791761677741892442010-03-27T20:55:00.000-05:002010-03-27T20:55:22.382-05:00

Another negative pregnancy test and I feel like my period will be coming shortly, but I have renewed hope after reading Julia Indichova's book Inconceivable. I wanted to believe that one can heal themselves and get pregnant naturally and this book gave me that hope. I went on Julia's website, purchase her other book and a couple CDs and I plan on taking her phone courses. It is refreshing to

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I am having a very difficult time. I am having trouble believing that IVF is the only way for me to conceive. I want to believe that if I eat the right foods and do the right things that I will conceive without assistance. To conceive naturally is the number one goal I wrote down when I started putting Edwene Gaines' ideas into practice in January. Write down your goals, say them daily, tithe

Krysiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08441296304094976930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14512931.post-55973275364520850882010-03-24T14:59:00.000-05:002010-03-24T14:59:44.199-05:00

I finished the Quantum Wellness Cleanse 13 lbs lighter and I couldn't be happier. Of course, I am still not preggers, but all in good time I suppose. I ate well for 3 whole weeks and I saw magnificent results. My pants are even too big - so nice to see. I am still eating vegan and staying away from added sugars. I have added back in gluten and seem to be tolerating it well. I think my real

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I will be starting the 3rd week of my cleanse on Monday. The first week was really motivating because I was dropping some serious poundage. I ended up losing 7 lbs in 7 days. I haven’t lost anything since taking off that initial weight, but I am really pleased with how the cleanse is going. I think I want to continue this vegan thing after I finish with the 21 days. In fact the only thing

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Well... the test was negative. Not really a big surprise as I have been staring at negative tests every month for over a year now. While I was okay with the result and there were limited tears, I wanted to drown my sorrows in Corner Bakery syrup. After eating every last bite of their baked french toast with bacon and sucking down a chai tea latte, I felt so sick. Then I immediately thought, "What

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I have been meditating daily for about six weeks now, completed my dream board, set goals, wrote them down, and given weekly tithes. I have prayed and had others pray for me. I am attending a new church with more prayers and meditation. One important aspect of goal setting is to believe that it is possible and act like what you have asked for is on it's way. So if your goal is to take a

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After listening to the Four Agreements, I began to wonder how I was going to be impeccable with my word. I began listening to the Law of Attraction and Ask and it is Given. The basic premise of the Law of Attraction is that our thoughts are manifested in the real world. Negative thoughts produce negative results and vice versa. So again I am getting the message to be less negative. The Law

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After I finished listening to The Four Spiritual Laws of Prosperity, I starting listening to The Four Agreements. The first agreement is to be impeccable with your word. This is a similar message shared in the Four Spiritual Laws of Prosperity which suggests a 21-day challenge not to gossip, criticize or complain. I have been on Day 1 for four days and I will start on Day 1 again tomorrow. I

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I am listening to the audiobook of Edwene Gaines' Four Spiritual Laws of Prosperity. Never having been a reader as a kid, it takes me a long time to read and having so many other hobbies, books tend to sit around my house without being read. The audiobook seemed like a good option and I have a hard copy of the book to refer back to should the need arise. I have been listening to it every

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I completed my vision board on Monday, January 18th. Every morning since then, I have meditated, reflected on my board and thanked God for everything (even the things I do not have, in the present tense.) One of the things on my board is to find my career's true calling and that it is close to my home. This commute is killing me. Two days later we found out there will be reductions in staff

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I feel as if I am on the verge of a shift, a shift in my being, a shift in my life. I suppose infertility has brought me to the place I am today, although I have been on a spiritual path for a few years now. It started back in 2005 when I found myself teaching in an inner city school with no real experience other than student teaching in an all white suburban school. I thought I was going to

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